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shaam ka time...

Ghar me ajeeb sa sannata bhara hua tha

hall me tv halki awaaz me chal rahi thi

mammy TV dekh rahi thi par unka dhayan TV par nahi sneha par tha..

sneha zameen par baithi apne students ki copies cheek kar rahi thi

mammy uski side kaafi der se  dekh rahi thi....

padhai ho rahi hai yaa bas time west kar

rahi ho

sneha thoda jhunjhula kar bolti hai

ho rahi hai mammy ....

tabhi papa aandar aate hai aur kursi kheench kar baith jaate hai

wo kuch der tak  chup chap  bas sneha ko dekhte rahte hai

phir bilkul normal tone me bolte hai

sneha "

"Haa papa"...

ek baat pochhu sach sach bata

tu kisi ladke vadke se baat karti hai kya

aajkal?

bas itana sunte hi sneha ke haanth ruk jate hai...pen hawa me thoda sa aatak jata hai

n...nahi papa ...aisa kuch nahi hai

wo turant mammy ki taraf dekhti hai

thoda gusse se aur thoda shock se

jaise aankho se hi bol rahi ho

Aapne bataya naa sab kuch...

mammy turant aankhe chura leti hai

me kyu bataugi...

mammy mene aap par viswas karke

par aap...

papa ab bhi shaant tone me bolte hai

Arre gussa kyu ho rahi ho...bas puchh raha hoo

aur tumhari umar me ye sab aam baat hai beta maan bhatakta hai...haam tumse kuch ulta seedha kahe rahe hai kya..

phir itana gussa kyu ho rahi ho

sneha jaldi se apni nazre jhuka leti hai

aur copy par pen ghumane lagti hai

aur dheere se bolti hai

papa wo achha ladka ...

uski awaaz halki si kaap rahi thi par usme pyar ko bachane ki koshis thi

papa bas use chup chaap dekhte rahte

unki aankho me dard aur soch dono thi

beta hamse koi chuk ho gai tumhari parvaris me

papa me unse bahut pyar karti hoo

papa wo sach me bahut achhe insaan hai

mujhse bahut pyar karte hai

mujhse bhi jada

nahi papa par aap se kaam bhi nahi

aur me saadi karugi to bas shanidhya se

beta tum abhi chhoti ho achha bura nahi samajhti ho

ho sakta hai wo ladka tumhara faida uthana chahta ho

beta mene duniya dekhi  hai isliye kahe raha hoo

aur tum to professor banna chahti ho

to is waqt bas usi par focus karo

sneha thoda irritate hokar bolti hai

papa me 22 saal ki hoo apna achha bura sab samajhti hoo

haa beta badi ho gai ho isliye to samjha raha hoo

me ab koi chhoti bachi nahi hoo papa jis par aap apni maanmani kare

aur mene bahut soch samajh kar faisla liya hai

me sirf shanidhya se hi saadi karna chahti ho

sneha ki baat sunte hi mammy ka gussa phir ubhar aata hai

sneha tujhe samajh bhi aa raha hai tu kya kahe rahi hai

aise baat karte hai apne papa se

pyar se samjha rahe hai aur tu ulta jawab de rahi hai

thode tameez se baat kiya kar

do din baat cheet karne ko pyar nahi bolte hai

papa dheere se bolte hai

rahne do...bachi nahi

nahi ji....bachi nahi rahi ab ye tabhi to yese bol rahi hai

mammy me to bas ...wo bolne ki koshis karti hai

kya me to bas...

aur mammy use chup kara deti hai

sneha dekh haam tere dusmaan nahi hai jo kahe rahe hai wo tere bhale ke liye hi kahe rahe hai

kal ko jab haam nahi rahege ....tab tujhe samajh aayega...

papa dheere se  uthkar bolte hai

chalo ab rahne do...beta jald bazi me koi faisla mat lo...jiski wajah se tume puri zindagi pachhtawe me gujarni padhe

haam to bas yahi chahte hai ki tum apne pairo par khadi ho jao

par papa wo achha ladka hai

mujhse bahut pyar karta hai aur me usse...

mammy phir gusse se bolti padti hai

sneha tujhe samajh bhi aa raha hai tu kya bol rahi hai

pyar...

us ladke ne dimaag kharab kardiya hai iska

mammy wo mujhse bahut pyar karte hai aur me unse bas

aur me saadi karugi to bas shanidhya se

itana kahkar sneha irritate aur gussa hokar waha se apne room ki taraf chali jaati hai

suniye ji....lakshan theek nahi lag rahe iske

kal ko koi ulta seedha kadam utha liya to haam log samaaj me kya mooh dikhayege

koi achha sa ladka dekhkar iski saadi kar dijiye

ho gai iski professory ki padhai

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sneha ki jhatke se aankh khulti hai Subha ke Alarm ki awaaz se....

ek pal ke liye use samajh  hi nahi aata

wo kaha hai

phir jese hi dimaag thoda stable hota hai

uski nazar apne pass soye Rudra par padti hai

aur bas.

uska chahra aandar se udaas ho jata hai

jaise kisi ne use yaad dila diya ho ki wo kis zindagi me hai

wo kuch pal use ghurti rahti hai

Rudra chain se so raha hota hai...bilkul sukoon se

sneha ke hoontho par halki si kadvi hasi aa jati hai...

inhe to neend bhi kitni aaram se aati hai

uski aankhe dheere dheere bharne lagti hai

wo dheere se uthkar baith jaati hai

Ahhh"

wo apna haanth lower stomach par rakhti hai aur phir turant hata leti hai jaise khud ko chhune ka bhi maan nahi kar raha hai

uski saanse thodi tez ho jati hai

Aur phir uske maan me ek awaaz....bilkul seedhi ,

bilkul nangi sachai ke sath

Main hoo kya inki zindagi me ?...

uski aankhe band ho jaati hai

Biwi...?

ek kadvi hasi uske aandar hi toot jaati hai

Nahi...."

uski ungliya chadar ko kas ke pakad leti hai

Biwi hoti to...meri marzi bhi hoti

uska gala band  sa ho jaata hai

Biwi hoti to ....meri izzat bhi hoti

Aasu ab ruk nahi pate hai

Biwi hoti to mujhe har raat yun bardast nahi karna padta

uski saanse halki si tutne lagti hai

wo dheere se sir jhuka leti hai

Aur phir wo lafz...jo uske  dil ko sabse jada chubhta hai

shayad "...

shayad me inki zindagi me sirf...

uski awaaz maan me hi aatak jaati hai..par phir bhi nikalti hai

sirf ek Rakhel hoo...

jaise hi wo ye sochti hai uska pura sharir aandar se hil jata hai

aasu tez tez girne lagte hai

wo turant apne mooh par haanth rakh leti hai taaki awaaz bahar naa nikale

Naam biwi  ka...

ehsaas...

ehsaas to kabhi diya hi nahi...

wo ek pal ke liye mudkar Rudra ko dekhti hai

uska chahra bilkul normal....bilkul beparwah

sneha ke aandar ek ajeeb sa khaalipaan

phail jata hai

inhe farq hi nahi padta hai

main toot rahi hoo yaa ...bikhar rahi hoo

wo dheere se bed se neeche zameen par pair rakhti hai aur phir ladkhada jaati hai

jese pairo me bilkul jaan hi naa ho

wo apne nage sharir par chadar kasti hai aur khud ko sambhalte huye

ladkhadate huye dheere dheere chalkar bathroom ki taraf chali jaati hai

par aandar

bas ek hi baat gunj rahi thi

Main zinda hoon,

par sirf apni beti ke liye.....